It never mattered where I was, whether I was walking through a store or standing in line, people loved to talk to me. I always used to imagine myself as an uninviting person. Eyes down low, arms crossed, attention occupied with something uninteresting but it never worked. Random conversation from strangers would come at me from all sides… I tried to duck and dodge the attack, but it always failed. I’d be hit, forced to respond with, “Yes, these deals are amazing” “I know, this shirt is adorable” (Which is why I am carrying it around the store with me you fuck stick, I plan on buying it), fake smile plastered across my face the entire time my head reeling with what part of my body language allowed the attack.
I used to be envious of my friends who had that mean look to them, the uninviting face, the ones who never get forced into uncomfortable conversation about random things with random people. I am no longer envious though because I have accepted my fate and embraced it in many ways. I have a face that invites people in, like a vampire, ok, maybe not. (I wanted to make myself a little cooler than I am) Anyway, the face that says “talk to me, I give a shit”. I am no longer annoyed or put out by these random attacks; instead I play the game, if they are excited about a sale, so am I. If they like the shirt I am carrying around, I inform them where I found it, the cost and if there are any more. Why not, right? My next step is to be the random person who attacks and talks to that one person who looks like they want to be left alone. Look out strangers, here I come.
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